Random Thoughts

I really have no topic to discuss today. It's a rare day off for me in that I've been home all day, lounging in my bathrobe. I need to hit the gym but before I go, here are my random thoughts for today.

*I saw The Lovely Bones after months of anticipation (and after reading the book at least 6x). The movie wasn't as good as the book and I ultimately decided that it would really suck to be murdered and never found.

*I wish I had money so I could travel the world. I don't want to do a whole lot with this life of mine but travel is definitely on my list. Places I must see are as follows: Germany, England, Scotland, Ireland, Poland, Austria, and Bavaria. In the US, I'd like to go to Boston and Salem, MA; Portland, OR; Seattle (again), NYC, Connecticut; Woodstock, VT in the winter and Washington DC again. It would be so awesome to be able to take my boys to all these places. I want them to see the world.

*I bought season 4 of Prison Break for Robert for Christmas because we missed the last half of the season when it aired. We have yet to watch it and I'm dying to find out how the series ended.

*Next month marks 51 years since the death of one of my all-time favorite musicians, Buddy Holly. I wish I was alive back then so I could have seen him live. He was so passionate about his craft AND he was a good ol' Texas boy.

*My hair is rapidly going grey. I find (and pull out) grey hairs right and left these days and it has nothing to do with stress.

*I tend to take my parents for granted and I never realize it until I hear about old friends' parents' health problems or deaths. It doesn't ever really occur to me that my parents (and grandparents) will no longer be with us one day.

*When I find out that a particular favorite food of mine is high on calories, I will stop eating it cold turkey. For example--I used to LOVE the Peanut Butter Moo'd at Jamba Juice but when I found out that the large one had over 600 calories, I never touched it again and it's been over 2 years now.

*My oldest child will be 13 at the end of March. It does not seem possible that he'll be 13 but it sure has been an adventure watching him grow and become his own person.

*I always get sad when I lose contact with people who were once an important part of my life. Sometimes it makes me wish that I'd never met them at all.

The Workouts

I'm making nice progress but still not as fast as I'd like. I've been at this now for about a month (well, a little less than). I thought I'd give an example of the type of stuff I do. Sorry, I haven't bothered taking progress pictures yet. Something about my perfectionism gene won't let me do it yet. Call it vanity if you must. Anyway, my typical day at the gym takes up roughly 2-2.5 hours in the day, lifting 5 days/week and cardio 7. 45 minutes is spent on the treadmill where I end the session at a 12% incline for the last 5 minutes (the inclines gradually increase throughout ending at 12).

Today I'm working my back, biceps and chest where I will do the following lifts for the next 2 weeks before I change up the lifts to keep my muscles guessing. It goes like this:
wide-grip lat pulldown (3x15)
single-arm dumbbell row (3x15)
barbell curl (3x12)
hammer curl (3x12)
flat bench press (3x15)
incline dumbbell flye (3x12)

While I'm on the subject, I just have to mention that I fell off the diet wagon at dinner last night. I've been eating very well these last few weeks--down 12 lbs now. Blog friends, I felt incredibly guilty after I ate "bad". Perfectionism reared its ugly head again and I didn't enjoy falling off the diet wagon. I wonder how real body builders feel when they allow themselves a cheat meal? This has become something of a discipline to me and I love it. So why can I not enjoy letting myself eat "normally" every now and then? Oh well, no sense in going back over my love/hate relationship with food. We all know from previous posts how I feel about food. This is the ultimate goal for me. I don't know if one show will be enough now...

I Believe I Can Fly...

Have you ever had dreams where you can fly? I had one the other night and I always welcome flying dreams as crazy as that may sound. I always go to really cool places when I "fly" and the other night was no different. I think the best thing about those types of dreams is that for me, they seem so real. I started off surrounded by water somewhere in Florida and there were crocodiles and all types of fish in this murky water. The sun was shining and I was there with two friends, my husband and my children and we were there for my parents' vow renewal which was to take place the next day. Anyway, I was horrified by the idea of having to cross this moat which was filled with the crocs and fish so I told my friends, "Wanna see something cool that I can do?" I jumped into the air and all of a sudden, I was high above the moat and I was as light as air.

My friends discovered that they could fly as well as long as they were near me so we took it upon ourselves to head out on an adventure. We flew to a tiny town in Wyoming at night where we were surrounded by thousands of stars. We flew over a neighborhood and I specifically remember that a white clapboard house caught my eye. We flew over mountain ranges and the snow looked like white glitter when the moon shown on it. From there we were on a highway in Georgia where we were chased by police officers. We ended the trip in Montreal where we watched Olympic skiers practice their sport. I know it sounds totally strange but my flying dreams are the ones I always remember the best and I can't wait to share other adventures next time.

Happy New Year!

I have not fallen off the planet, blog readers! I am very much alive and well. Now that the holiday season is completely behind us, I have a little time to breathe! I am looking forward to all that 2010 has to offer with not only me but my family as well. This year, my children will be 13 (OMG!) and 8. This year, my parents will celebrate 34 years of marriage. This year, I'm working towards an NPC figure competition.

Speaking of figure, the workouts are progressing nicely. I love seeing the changes, I love that food now fuels me rather than defines me. I no longer eat for comfort. I no longer eat from boredom. I don't like not eating healthy. I live for asparagus, chicken, broccoli, ground turkey... and I feel so much better about myself already! I've lost 8 lbs in the span of about 3 weeks and i can fit into certain clothes that I haven't worn in months. I will post pictures once a month so get ready for January's shot in a couple of weeks!

2010 is gonna be a great year and I'm really looking forward to it!